So i want to publish this post by todaaaaaay.
How long have i not felt this way? Veeeeeery.
Passing out parade was a success and i will like to thank the organiser.
Thanks for letting me leave HYRC and this big Ug family with such beautiful memories.
I'm glad to have this parade and i had thoroughly enjoyed it.
Thank you.
Apparently, i can't really make myself say all these out-.-
It was the last time wearing my red cross uniform.
I actually hope that i can put it on for oh please, just one last time.
Thank god for my eight other red cross peers, my lovely juniors
and all the Ug friends I've come to associate with in these 4 years.
Thanks for making my journey full of joy and fun.
Yes, it definitely comes to a point when i feel like crying..
I never used to understand why Ug seniors are always sad to leave.
I used to think that it's the best form of destress and finally..freedom!
But if that's my heartfelt thoughts, there won't be this post isn't it.
I was hoping against hope that p.o.p will not begin.
Because if there isn't a beginning from the start, i'll not be trepidated for the end.
But like the old adage goes: " All good things have to end"..
If there isn't an ending, nobody will learn to appreciate what they've been given.
Throughout these 4 years of HYRC journey, i'll be lying to say that there is complete peace and harmony.
No. We have our fair share of squabbles, arguments and in my distant memory,
there came a time when communication came to a total breakdown.
But the intense animosity cease to exist any longer.
This double gold legacy is attained not by an individual,
but by every single individual.
It is the efforts of everyone.
Red Cross was a small unit back in 2007.
We had little achievements and maybe we weren't even regarded upon highly.
But we'd never given up. Because it's that burning passion that kept us going thus far.
I do not wish for my juniors to be complacent for the unit's achievements today,
because nothing lasts forever. Only through hard work can we see the results.
There are tons and tons of nitty-gritty details and alot more.
NDP for one, has shaped and moulded me as an individual.
The strenuous long hours under the sun,
the "you didn't do this well enough" remarks after all the sweat
made me want to give up not once nor twice.
But the bond and teamwork coupled with trust had seen us through.
At every camp and red cross event,
i'm glad to know so many different sirs and ma'ams.
Some in particular give me a warm and friendly feeling.
Thank god for allowing me to meet with these fantastic people.
I'll always remember what i've learnt from them.
Ask me why I'd chosen to join red cross
And I'll tell you i really don't have an idea.
I'm a tinnnnny girl with poor stamina and even poorer health.
Let me run a few miles as punishment and i'll be drop dead tired the next instant.
But if you tell me joining red cross is a foul choice,
i'll tell you i didnt regret. And i'll rebuke and retort before debating with you.
I'll knock some smart sense into you (:
Without all these people, i'll never have been so happy.
It is here where i feel most natural.
I don't care heck if my hair is messy, if i'm laughing aloud, if i'm yelling like an uneducated person.
I don't bother. Because the people around me are as crazily indulgent.
And we laugh together, yell together and have messy hair together. (:
From a blur and silly secondary one cadet who doesn't know what in the heavens i am supposed to do,
to gaining knowledge in secondary two,
before imparting this knowledge to my mentee in secondary three,
and finally stepping down now.
I have to say i'm proud that i used to create a lil havoc.
My stubbornness and self-assertiveness overwhelmed my logical thinking.
And i came to heated arguments with _ for insisting that i was right.
Even now, i think i'm right. rofl.
Of course, with maturation comes the departure for the air of haughtiness.
I must say this for the umpteenth time:
DON'T ever place me in the dark. Especially not alone -.-
That is veeeery, veeeeery wrong :(
And with that incident came the animosity and deep undesirability for a long time.
Gradually, i learnt to see past those things.
I've put down my heavy bag: my anger, my frustrations. My inability to forgive.
Those childish things that i used to do. I no longer want to remember.
Passing out parade 2010.
I have to step down today to focus on the big O's.
Big fat stupid ugly idiot. I hate O.
I have strong faith in my juniors.
After we stepped down, i believe they can sustain the unit.
I see in them the burning passion, the enthusiasm and the willingness to learn.
I see in them the us from the past who constantly asked for improvements..
After today, i have so lil time left before the killer schedule starts rolling in.
But never ever give up! Possess the right confidence and work hard!
YES I LOVE MY JUNIORS :D
This is the best decision i'd made in my life: Being a part of this Ug family.
I'm appreciative, touched and deeply glad.
All good things have to end. I'll miss the unit.
All the veeeeery best juniors!
Ben & Jerry's Ice-Cream
Friday, April 09, 2010
11:42 PM