Resistance♥

Thursday, July 31, 2008

twelve more dayys boyy. i cant wait for it. i dont even knoww what to give. i dont even remember how standing beside euu feels like. even for a split moment todayy. it feels lurve-euu sweet.
l0ls.
school was fine todayy.
i am like so sick hao bu hao.
then i was like totallyy ignoring myy sickness.
it was a whole load of funn to 整 wilson arhhs!! ahahas :)
joed came todayy oh yeahhs. but didnt roll his eyes no matter how manyy times i reiterated.
hmmpphh si joed :)
amos was funnyy this morning. partnered him during assemblyy and he was damn lame lorr.
wakakas. :)
the chinese spelling todayy was not bad. i know how to write everyy word.
whyy must we have spelling like every week lorr. grr. :(
the home-econ test was fine. aiyaa. should be able to pass over average bahhs.
i forgot some knowledge i learnt!! teacher should have just held the test that dayy when i learnt mahhs. drag and drag. ohhmyytiann.
and haojun damn funnyy larrs.
yeesan was asking me answer for home-econ larrs then i was so irritated i asked haojun then i was making him confused cause i talked so softlyy and crap-ped.
then home-econ cher outside and sayys haojun dont think i dontknow arhhs. do your test dont talk. wahkaoos it was so damn funnyy hao bu hao.
then his whole face was like veryy innocent like that.
then he told cher is i disturbing him nobodyy cared him.
ohhmyytiann. should have witnessed howw damn funnyy.
biologyy test was postponed. pheww. cher was not happyy. and she slammed the door on us when she left. T.T. cause we were late for biologyy lesson for 45 minutes cause we were at libraryy for el mahhs. and when we got back we assinuated that she didnt teach us nitrogen.carbon cycle and conservation. ohhmyytiann. she was damn irritated. haiis she reallyy didnt teach issit. dontknow leiis. sad-ded. sorryy cher dont angryy arhhs.
i am so disturbed and not at ease larrs!!
i miss redcross worrs lot lots lots de.
ohhmyytiann. hmmpphh.
i am just so sick can. if i walk in fast paces or run i will be out of breath.
aiyaa sad larrs. myy oa gold training. ohhmyytiann.
i will go next week i promise!! no matter how sick i am will still make it to redcross next week!!
redcross is missed! :)
hmm..after school was like kinda emo as i went to bus-stop lorr.
going home alone. cant imagine howw sad-ded.
waited for jinyii laogong lorr. she got test til one pm. zzz.
i asked hamka pei me walk around find ppl pei me to bus-stop. im so afraid of loneliness.
andyy suaned wo sayys i short. dots. baddyy. i tell yr gf then euu noe. wakakas.
rosamund walked me to bus-stop.
i lurve rosamund lots!!
ahahas.
i saw judith and wilson lorr. :D
then i wanted wilson to pei me take 187.
then judith wanted him to take 157.
l0ls we were both so afraid of emo-fied on bus mahhs afterall wilson can take both.
then i took his bag.. judith took his handphone.
then he sayys he take taxi cause we dont have his wallet. funnyy guyy larrs!!! :)
in the end they sayy want go westmall.
i was not veryy willing in the end wilson and judith want me pei them mahhs.
go lurrs..ahahas. wilson paid for the taxi fare. :)
pei-ed judith buyy her contact lenses.
i took wilson's twenty dollars to let her payy.
ahahas. :)
went to eat then wilson sayy want buyy me belated birthdayy present and i forced him to buyy for 他 too. we went to the sports link and i chose the most expensive one and told wilson to buyy for 他..ahahas. wilson said buying somewhere else lorr. i dontmind. ahahas.
we went around.. to jean yip too. ahahas. ssshh secret secret.
went to converse. zinc. yellow to look look.
cause wilson's getting me a bag. damn scared the uncle at zinc so ran off.
we pei-ed judith to find her friends.
then we went to converse look look judith's shoes. wilson is buying for her!! ahahas.
went back zinc^^
dontknow what bag 他 likes lorr. sians.
maybe getting one bahhs. or something else.
i finally decided on a hot pink and black bag. wilson's getting for me worrs!! erm.and i chose that special dayy for him to give me cause of 他. ahahas.
saw millie jiaen and lifang at an art place.
millie saw us and were so shocked! cute larrs her :)
judith pei-ed her friends to koufu.
wilson and i went back first.
and we took a taxi arhhs. wakakas.
the uncle sayys we veryy smart cause we flagged the taxi directlyy and blatantlyy infront of the taxi-stand. muahahas. not wilson is me smart lorr.
went home and was here blogging. i am such a good girl cause i am writing like myy autobiographyy. wakakas but not that short worrs.
haiis i am still missing redcross arhs. ohhmyytiann. wonder what they are doing noww. :(
ohhmyytiann.
doctor sayys i have: flu. cough. fever (38deg).ulcers.asthmatic. (dontknow is it temporarily or what. :[ )
i dontwant to be a sick girl anymore!!
i want to be perfectlyy fine and healthyy hao bu hao :(
i miss redcross and myy friends noww.
mum's not bringing me out le. she's sick. ohhmyytiann.
all alone at home noww.
i am going to see the ghost show tonight. and i am going to ask someone who issh damn timid to watch larrs. ahahas. *snickers*
i have an extremelyy long post.
todayy chekjun is knotty and sickk. *giggles*

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3:15 PM

Wednesday, July 30, 2008

TAG REPLIES!! :)

zhixian: wahhs..no sincerityy :( ahahas. kayys thanks anywayys short-short tag de shuai shuai seniorr!! :]

JINYI: (: LAOGONG AND ME DE KFC TRIP. ohhmyytiann. bad bad girl arhs euu :]

kaixuan: thankk youu for tagga!! :) want lee siao me arhhs. ahahas. kayys. wait i am nursed back to health first!!^^

yeesan: kayys arhs :] fridayy lorr..ahahas.

michelle chia: i am not scared hao bu hao. oil boss veryy mean lorr. ahahas. thankk youu for yrr taggyy [:

to myself: michelle chia veryy lame lorr!! :) thankk youu arhhs for both identities lorr oil boss :x

jieying: thankks for taggyy girl!! :)

JINYI: tagg me where got dont read de lorr. ahahas. okayy larrs. laogong got privilege hao bu hao. youu are loved!! :]

kenneth: finallyy ask wo link arhs!! kayys linked!! [:

Passerby: heehees. i didnt know so manyy people ill alongside me. take care arhs!! :]

:) :] (: [: ^^ !!!

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9:37 PM

fourteen more dayys.
haiis boyy euu happyy anything also can okayys :]
i let euu have yrr wayy!! :)
PS: woaini

ohhmyytiann.
i have a fever and a cough and a flu.
ohhmyytiann.
in order nott to spread germs to other huayians especiallyy my cute cute 2e1-ians.
i might not be heading for school tomorrow lurrs.
sad but true.
this girl here is terriblyy sick.
but then againn. i dontknow worrs.
if i am happyy then i will head for school.
ahahas.
woainiwoainiwoainiwoaini
howw i wishh euu will take care of me when i am ill.
haiis.
euu are like myy electromotive force lurrs.
the willpower for me to come to school.
but i am so sick noww.
let fate decides. ahahas.
i want to go school badlyy!! :(

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9:23 PM

Tuesday, July 29, 2008

ohhmyytiann.
adamntlyy sick.
thankk mummyy for taking care of me.
i am so gonna be nursed back to proper health.
was feeling prettyy queasyy in the morning.
tot of backing out when i was about to board the bus in the school.
haiis too back im such a bad taurean.
i am so insistent though i am on the brinks of fainting.
pale.
then myy flu got worse in school.
ohhmyytiann.
xingxi also sickk.
take care girl!
i dontcare. i am so gonna go to school tomorrow lorr.
i m sick and i have just finished all myy homework.
what a good girl hao bu hao.
heehees :)
after school actuallyy wanted to head home straight de.
but pei-ed jinyii laogong go kfc.
hahas. i lurve myy laogong so much hao bu hao.
i abit deserve it larrs.
still had crispyy chicken thrice in a week.
no wonder i have cough and sore throat.
at kfc one guyy was looking at me.
then maybee i m sick so not in the right mind?
i said hi then he was like damn red in the face?
ahahas.
sorryy ps-ed jieying nvr pei her home again.
hees :] i still lurvee euu girl.
ahahas.
jinyii and i went round and round lorr after we ate.
cause we alot things to sayy.
and i so long nvr chat with laogong liaos.
ahahas.
homed alone.
went home and snuggled into bed.
woke up had med and herbal drink?
still sick.
had dinner.
bland. loss of taste buds. aww.
went to bathe. ahahas. now feeling much better!! :]
ohhmyytiann.
saww euu todayy.
the melt-me feeling.
the lurveuusomuchboyy feeling.
the blissful feeling.
all gone.
onlyy thing is euu veryy shuai.
i no longer dare to like anyone else.
怎么办？？
感觉不一样了。。
i am not emo larrs.

PS: i dontknow whyy. but i dontwant to see other girls falling head over heels with euu. i onlyy want euu euu and euu. i dont want other girls to like euu. how i wish i can make that onee and onlyy patent for my own rights. i dont want euu to belong to any other girl. maybe love is this selfish. i dontcare. how i wish euu are mine. boyy euu make me so confused!! do i like euu still or not?? ohhmyytiann. euu make me cryy boyy. can euu give me glimpse of hope? i am so afraid i will wander from the boundaries of myy affection.

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10:12 PM

Monday, July 28, 2008

我今天看到你的时候。。
脸红了！！
ahahaas.
this morning i was talking to xingxi on the bus.
and saying that she's alwayys back home earlier than me.
and noww im back le and she hasnt.
ahahaas.
dontknowhyy
stomach hurts so badlyy.
alreadyy unwell in school le.
actuallyy want ask jinyii out to bbt shop.
but then she has supplementaryy and i dont thinkk myy health can suffice?
so headed home after i got the gold command list.
ahahaas.
got three a1s so far.
historyy. chinese. science. hurrayys^^
til i got back myy maths results.
boohoos. i just passed hao bu hao.
its so saddening as i am alreadyy doing above-average for all myy subjects liaos :]
other than that god-damn-it. MATHS.
thats's a vindicative terrorist on myy HATE-list hao bu hao.
aww.
but no choice i have to fall in lurve with it. sians.
i dontcare lorr. i am so not gonna transfer to n.a like howw big bad wolf cursed me.
ahahaas.
tomorrow is home-economics test. aww. jiayouss girl!
todayy i am so hyper-active.
too hyper not good lorr.
in the end fell sick. this is warped logic? but i wasted too much energyy le mahhs :]
T.T
i lurve the song on yeesan and kenneth tan's de blogs.
ahahaas.
fall for you.
its like so damn nice? but i cant put in myy blog mahhs.
cause horr. aiya dont sayy lurrs.
euu knoww i knoww can liaos.^^
ahahaas. :p
a little bit cheekyy arhs.
i didnt havee war with michelle chia todayy larrs.
too busyy liaos. i not scared hao bu hao.
ahahaas.
being the english rep means running up and down getting assignments for 2e1-ians.
aww. but i enjoyy my job. it's satisfiying^^
i feel like typing on and on and on.
but i dontknowhatosayy.
ahahaas.

ilurveeuuboyy.

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3:07 PM

Sunday, July 27, 2008

ohhmyytiann.
historyy research sucks larrs.
ohhmyytiann.
i used seven pages hao bu hao.
and used three hours plus plus plus hao bu hao.
ohhmyytiann.
heart ache larrs myy ink.
a haa haa.
damn noob lorr.
i should have used microsoft word for myy home economics instead of microsoft powerpoint lurrs.
ohhmyytiann.
and michelle chia just told me howw that guyy looks like.
ohhmyytiann.
si michelle chia.
should say earlier mahhs.
waste time lorr.
still must divulge to euu.
ohhmyytiann.

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6:10 PM

Friday, July 25, 2008

wahhs.
todayy my leg veryy pain pain pain arhs.
muscle cramps lorr.
i was like totallyy worn-out during training? came home.ate.and slept tight.
for around two hours plus and omgoshh know what woke me up mahhs.
myy muscle cramps arhs!! it was like so damn =-= pain hao bu hao.
wo de tian arhs.
told mummyy her nu er so kelian hao bu hao.
then she dontcaremelorr.
wo de tian arhs.
bathed then came blogging.
我的脚好痛哦！
must persevere liaoss.
i am aiming for OA gold worrs.
hmm nvm lurrs. though i dontknow how i was allocated but it still rawks larrs. OA veryy shiok lorr!!^^ :)

原来我早已喜欢上了另一个他。

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11:32 PM

TAG REPLIES!! (:

Japheth (20/7): thks arhs..

«†Øä§†»™: hahas. OU XIANG!!

` Wennnli,♥: hees. wenli arhs..veryy knotty worrs ^^

@m0s: wahhs nvr tagga yr SOMEONE blog arhs..so free come tag me..suan til scared arhs..hehe :) amos biased orhs..

Japheth: hmm..path to happiness? cute lurrs euu..will give it tot de worrs. thankyouus arhs! :]

AMANDUU: amanda finallyy tagga myy blog worrs!!^^ dats like greatt arhs..but youu arhs..read til so engrossed. wakakas. i veryy happyy arhs! :)

Japheth: Sure never crap lorr..euu all hen cute hao bu hao..hahas^^

lynn: i forgot liaos..either euu or her lorr..hahas.. :)

no name: thks for tagging arhhs! :)

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12:01 PM

Thursday, July 24, 2008

助人为快乐之本哦！！

昨天帮了人心情真得好好哦。。

hehes :)

爱情真的是一种怪事。

你没有避开我时反而我去避开你。

突然间我相信我们以前不可能现在不可能以后也不可能。

不好意思。干扰了你宁静的生活。

我想说的是暂时我想请一下假好不好

不要继续追了。暂时性的吧。

可是每一分每一秒你都会在我心里的。

喜欢你让我也平静下来了你知道吗。

因为我好希望你的存在

所以也喜欢上学。

myy cute cute friends tagging myy blog are reallyy cute worrs.
and and and amos arhss..veryy spontaneous worrs.
hahas. todayy fangfang told me somethingg funnyy. she sayys got one three-n-two guyy likes -- i was thinking of it and i tot she's plain funnyy lorr. nobodyy will like someone like -- de larrs. l0lss. then jy sayys -- onlyy attracts sec-three-ers. aww. i dontlike myy friends to be unhappyy or what. i want everybodyy to be happyy happyy de. 我会不会太傻了？this cry-girl is so gonna restrain her tears. 我要我身旁的每一个人都快快乐乐的好不好。。

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10:10 PM

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

i reallyydontknowhateuuarethinkingboyy
euunoewhyyidontwantogiveuup
becauseilurveuusomuchboyy
- :(
- :/
- :x

during lesson todayy i was so emo. on the brink of tears euu knoww boyy. i cant figure out whyy youu have to avoid me. some told me euu were shyy but i think euu are so nott. euu just find me a nuisance rightt. dont avoid the issue boyy.
- :)
- :D
- :p

manyy ask me to give euu up countless times. i have never heeded their advice. i realise the underlying truth is that eventuallyy what makes me give up is when i realise i will never 配得上你. haiis..wth..how come i am so unhappyy over this boyy..this is treacherous yet i commit my everything to euu. thats untolerablyy insane.

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3:21 PM

Monday, July 21, 2008

我的脚好了！！哈哈哈。。
lurvve is all about what.
heard that somewhere.
yupps lurve is not easyy
to pursue someone is wayy harder.
more easyy to be loved.
aww.
todayy got the president's challenge kitkats.
most of redcross members were urgentlyy selling them off.
me and lynn esp.
hees. booked another four people for myy second booklet le. wayy cool.
after convincing four people out of ENTIRE hyss communityy.
we went to eat kfc.
then on the bus back.
one malayy couple asked if were twins.
hees!!
lynn arhs..not 101 couple liao worrs. euu alwayys say 101 de hahas..
is alot alot alot le!!!^^
next time we can parade as hyss most lookalike twins.
though we dont think so. hahas. :)
it was like raining so heavilyy hao bu hao.
one kind-hearted auntie sheltered me across the pedestrian crossing home. :)
thankyouss auntie!! ^^
ya ya ya..we were promised to get onstage tmr.
and our mc is YUJUN worrs.
thatss so hilarous sight.
myy HONEY so nervous arhs.. hees i will give euu HALF MYY BRAVERY DE HONEY
haiis.
lurviingg euu is harder than falling in lurve with a stone.
haiis.
euu make me feel like whatever i have done are effortless and to no avail.
haiis.
euu make me so sad.
mayybe if i leave euu alone for noww so that she will not harrass euu is for the best de.
like i sayy if euu are not happyy i cant be happyy too.
我真的爱上你了！
算了。。不管多艰难我也会撑下去的。。我一定要让你为我心动。。加油！:)

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4:39 PM

Sunday, July 20, 2008

HELLOOOSSS.
hees. wo xi huan myy laogong de HELLOOOSSS.
sadded. bu kai xin.
i tot i am the brave girl who steps forward saying that i will pursue myy love.
whyy when i face one failure.
i feel so sad.
i m starting to doubt if something will come out of us.
i m starting to doubt if i m strong enough to take the pain from there and sayy nvm and still lurve euu.
i m starting to doubt manyy things.
but when i sayy i have nvr liked someone more than euu.
i m not in doubts.
it is true.
i m still so sad.
tomorrow go onstage worrs.
mummyy sayys i m veryy funnyy.
as if i have never went on stage before.
but like what manyy say.
HUAYI REDCROSS CAN BE RECOGNISED LE!! :)
i dont denyy the fact that sometimes i want to leave HYRC.
i cant take hardship de.
but then i believe that myy fate is entwined with HYRC.
i will persevere til the end de.
becasue no matter what.
no matter who.
i strongly LURVEE HYRC.

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9:35 PM

Saturday, July 19, 2008

hahas.
i had finallyy fulfilled my promise to miss lee.
WEST DISTRICT CHAMPION!!!
yaya i admit im that over the moon lorr.
hees veryy veryy high now wors.
im also kinda disappointed that we didnt get into round two.
but then again one must be ambitious not greedyy.
i am satisfied with being WEST DIOSTRICT CHAMPION wors!! hahas! :]
i reallyy think each and every participant in the cac works hard.
win or lose is not a factor.
coming todayy and giving yrr best shot is all that matter.
i can proudlyy say all of us is a victor; one wayy or another.
hahas.
being WEST DISTRICT CHAMPION.
it is all our efforts kays and of course not forgetting..ya.
no matter what we all played a part and it is so cool to compete along professional cadets in professional schools with professional teachers. :)
WEST DISTRICT CHAMPION arhs!!
im looking forward to mondayy le wors.
can go onstage arhs.. hahas!!^^

PS: todayy im so happyy and i nvr give atd to big bad wolf. but in every fairytale the wolf is alwayys bad de hees nvm now im so happyy. hahas. hmm. the first person i wanna share the joy with is euu but i shared it with another person. i dontknow how to say. and im looking forward to yr bdae. todayy im a good girl and its the first dayy of my 'contract' hees!! (: RC MEMBERS ARE GOOD FRIENDS BACK!

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9:13 PM

Friday, July 18, 2008

i cryy again todayy.
im so weak and useless.
im so down.
where is the old me wherebyy laughter is existent everywhere.
i have lost myself.
crying does not help.
it onlyy shows how feeble i am.
dont bullyy HIM arhs.
if not i will nt happyy too if he nt happyy de.
and and and.
i promised zk that i wont talk back or argue with that big bad wolf.
and and and tryy not show that want beat him face.
hahas.
and and and
myy reward is he pei me go out with HIM.
heehees.
so no matter what benxiaojie must ren de!!
for the sake of HIM.

PS: im sorry to people affected byy me. though i cried too. but then i have caused unhappiness to people. the fault might not lie with me. but then im aware of myy bad atd. this girl has not become sweeter horr :] just by courtesy, sorryy. take it from there arhhs. words not reserved for big bad wolf. hmmpphh i hate big bad wolf. i nvr leak out sth todayy arhs. at least no matter how evil euu are. i still give euu face. because if i sayy out then buhbye forever. whyy didnt i say! i had never known that i hate euu this much. seriouslyy til todayy i realise that euu are an eyesore. roar. big bad wolf go back forest la.if euu think yr this wolf then talk lorr..ha ha..

tmr is cac. must jiayou! i want go upstage on mondayy arhs. haha. abit open liaos.
wo ai ni!

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9:35 PM

Thursday, July 17, 2008

我好希望这一切只是一场恶梦

这样的话我就可以马上从悲伤走出

就可以做一个快乐小女生了。

谎言与伤害让我无可自拔。

不同的是我不只被爱情弄得团团转。

连我所喜爱的事物都让我变了。

我是真心要快乐起来的。

我答应过你们。

但是真正的幸福到底是什么？

幸福不是快乐

幸福是短绽的。

却造成永恒的骗局。

不要问我为什么。

因为你们的道歉也都是敷衍我的。

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8:47 PM

Tuesday, July 15, 2008

i will cheer up de!!
FANGXIN!! ^^ :)

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10:39 PM

Monday, July 14, 2008

this song is liked byy HONEYY and me. :]

我爱的人
BY: yoga lin

我知道故事不会太曲折

我总会遇见一个什么人

陪我过没有了她的人生

成家立业之类的等等

她做了她觉得对的选择

我只好祝福她真的对了

爱不到我最想要爱的人

谁还能要我怎样呢

我爱的人不是我的爱人

她心里每一寸都属于另一个人

她真幸福幸福得真残忍

让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深

我爱的人她已有了爱人

从他们的眼神说明了我不可能

每当听见她或他说"我们"

就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声

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8:47 PM

looking at myy HONEYY de blog.
i suddenlyy feel a gush of happiness like never before.
myy HONEYY cheers up le!! :)
not onlyy that my HONEYY reallyy hao hao hao wei da worrs!!
she decides to pursue the guyy she lurrves so deeplyy.
i decide not to give up too le.
i will lurvee euu all over again.
i promise!!
sorryy that i had never reallyy treated euu as a friend.
but more of a crush.
i know whyy i am not that hurt le.
because when i see euu i still blush de.
and i still get bowled over byy euu.'
euu had never left my heart even for a split second.
so HONEYY.
JIAYOUS.

我会一直喜欢着你的。这是我的承诺。我不要忘记你。因为我喜欢你的程度没有人知道。我爱你！！ :]

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8:15 PM

Saturday, July 12, 2008

happyy.
finally can have myy favourite song on myy blog le.
and hsiao jing teng rawks kays.
manyy manyy support.
went to alvin sir's hse todayy.
cause sir said so.
then it was veryy arduous lorr.
and veryy veryy veryy long.
and todayy my english was officiallyy discredited.
wahhs!
hahas.
i should be veryy busy de.
cause coming thursdayy is oral le.
and sat is myy cac competition.
uh-oh! ultra red alert arhs. hees.
but even when im busyy i think of euu.
then i will feel so hurt and sad and reallyy its painful.
crushing euu so long to have yourr nonchalance in return.
a normal friend.
yourr words hurt me like dontknowhowtosayy
sad sad sad.
and worse issh i dontknowhowtocryout
i reallyy realyy dontwanna see myy honeyy so down de.
i reallyy want honey to cheer up.
honeyy dont smile if euu dont feel like it.
dont suppress your emotions cry if euu like.
we will always be by yourr side de.
especiallyy me kays. :]
dont be sad. dont be hurt. dont cryy.
euu can depend on honeyy here de.
jiayous.

♥our lips must always be sealed

11:14 PM

Friday, July 11, 2008

went for first aid duty lorr.
then had fun with jinyi jiamin limin miaosi kaixuan at the playground.
really really veryy veryy happyy de.
thanks pals :)
i had not felt so calm and blissful for long.
thank yous.
everything is over.
youu didnt put an end to it youtself.
we put it together.
thats the last recollection of a link le.
yr one sentence.
my minute action.
my heart hurts so much.
it is veryy painful now.
i thought i was fine.
til i saw euu this morning.
i felt like crying so much.
i dont want to cry infront of euu or anyone else.
i let euu go now.
i rather hurt my heart.
i am defeated.

♥our lips must always be sealed

10:59 PM

Wednesday, July 09, 2008

did euu know that..
everytime i walk past euu
every single school dayy when i see euu
my happyness is immense beyond words
i had always wanted to tell euu this
i reallyy didnt mean to blush
i cant control it
i dont mind euu being random
your sight never fixated upon me
but nowadays its reallyy veryy painful
when i sense an even further distance awayy from euu
cold disdain and unhappyness
i hope im imagining things
because when i see that
i dont want to see you anymore
i dont want euu to have anyy discomfort
much less yrr unexplainable behaviour
i onlyy hope to see euu happyy
even when im so badlyy hurt
fate let us meet
but it was cruel
i feel like im nothing more than an acquaitance in your eyes
maybe much lesser
i think of euu dailyy
dont need to do anything for me
just let me crush euu for an eternityy
liking euu is not insane
falling head-over-heels is
how i wish euu can speak with me
we cross paths
destiny hurts
routes diverted
i thought of giving euu up
amidst lies and treachery
i finally know that its hard
and i no longer sustain that courage
because as much as euu are the whole world to me
i remain as superfluous
school-life is enclosed in a nut-shell
stress bounded
suffocating me
yet i onlyy have one simple wish
euu reallyy must happyy de
INY IMY ITY ILY

PS: crushing euu is painful shyy tough and heart-wrenching.
i didnt choose to fall in lurve with euu
i cant control it
i seem to be cheering up.
i dont know whyy.
though i feel that wayy too
i am absolutelyy empty.

♥our lips must always be sealed

8:46 PM

Monday, July 07, 2008

hees :]
tmr heading to HQ to hand in cac report.
aww. so far lurrs. :)
appetite returned abit abit.
l0lss.
any kind hearted soul can buy my items in neopets mahs??
grr.
no shop till hao sad wors.
l0ls.
tzk euu better faster cheer up horr!^^

.......................

whyy do i feel animosity between us.
dislike can never change to like overnight.
subconsciously it is what euu make yrself to feel bahs.
if euu are never inclined to everything..
euu will never be.

♥our lips must always be sealed

9:10 PM

Saturday, July 05, 2008

uh-oh.
muscles and joints aching badlyy.
eww.
didnt saw mr. r being dunked ytdd.
didnt saw mrs l do the flying fox.
cause i am abit late for pcp le.
aww. sadded.
haiis.
nowadays health deteriorating. ><
no appetite at all.
pain in bodyy.
zzz. kinda breathless.
no stamina liaos.
short distance can make me faint and/or puke.
damn.
must take care liaos.
e pcp went fine.
hees. im now corporal and i finally got my STANDARD FIRST AID badge!!^^
woohoos. cool!
imagine being called NCO (Non Commisioned Officer)..
strange of me.
after pcp planning. i feel bored. haha. but dont reallyy want the stress again :)
wahss. hees :]
..........................

the more i tryy to get close to youu.
the further youu are awayy from me.
even when we are so close.
i feel that i will never get into yourr world.
even when the truth is obvious.
euu remain resolute and oblivious.
forgetting euu makes me think of euu.
a veryy veryy veryy pro phrase:
True love makes one devote whole-heartedly.
Truth love makes one collaspe brutally.
with courtesy from zhihui gorgor.
yrr words rawk.

♥our lips must always be sealed

8:28 PM

Wednesday, July 02, 2008

myy head hurts.
haiis.
i dont think anithin is ever gonna make me feel better.
yaa.
i overstress myself le.
i dont mind killing my braincells over my heavy workload.
but at least.
i want myy efforts to at least pay off.
the rehearsal todayy..
i applause vivian and kwan wai for their earnestness.
thks lynn for rendering assistance.
and :) for the cooperative ones.
haiis.
i dont know.
my head is in a throbbing mess.
just get promotion ceremony over and done with.
then the rest as i sayy.
is history.
haiis.
dont need shower me with accolades or apologises.
i am grateful but i have to stand up myself.
the more i stay inside my own world.
the more i distant due to stress.
i will never handle anything positivelyy.
myy head hurts.
but i can cope with it.
premonition that i will be killed. literally. :(
i dont want to neglect my studies ever again.
two more days for me to tackle the behind-the-scenes work.
JIAYOUS!!

♥our lips must always be sealed

7:48 PM