i rly dun feel like blogging now rly.
but i rly feel very sad.
sad for myself.
i have done many things.
i am shoudering alot of responsibilites.
i am keeping it silent.
i dont need many ppl who dont understand me to sympathise with me.
but y.
y must you make me cry everyday.
do you know how much i crave for happiness today.
i rly hope to be happy.
and for one day.
stop crying.
y must you do this to me.
do you know my feelings for being out of wadever i desire??
do you know how hurt i feel.
being forced in developed feelings for it and out.
y do this to me?
y deny me wadever i should have.
y deny me of all my opportunities.
i feel lyk suffocating to death.
nobody will understand me.
all of euu will only judge me.
then the smart alecks will think they know me well enough.
and start asking questions.
i dont know y i am treated like this.
there are many things.
many grievances and grouses that i dont want to complain.
evrithin is my responsibility.
euu ask around.
who is helping me?
nobody.
except jieying and lynn bahs.
what are all of euu doing.
adding to my sorrows.
wad if one day i cried myself to death.
what if one day i am rly so sad i want to escape.
wad if one day i get whatever i want.
living faraway near a beach.
where i can hear and see the waves the first thing in the morning.
and wake up to the welcoming wind and sound of waves.
with someone who loves me and protects me and never lets me feel hurt.
then i will not return again.
never return to this terrible reality.
terrible world.
y must i cry again and again?
y must i be denied of chances i should have?
y must euu do this to me?
y must euu treat me like this
i have not been treated like this from young.
jieying asked me control my temper.
without her.
i dont know what i will say.
i rly dont want to cry.
pls.
even for one day.
i rather bleed to unconsciousness.
help me.
give me peace.
♥our lips must always be sealed
11:45 PM